Psalm 46:1

"God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble." - Psalm 46:1

 My heart is already set. There's nothing that can move me.

still waiting.

up and down

it's funny

when I don't or can't talk to you, and you're right there in front of me, it feels like there is this heavy clamp, crushing my heart.

but when I do get to talk to you, especially if we're alone, then all of that disappears, and instead I feel bliss, and can't stop smiling...

yeah, I think I'm a loser like that (:

still waiting. (:

16 days left

16 days left until you see it.

It's been a month. Since that day. I can't say that I've forgotten about it, because I don't know whether or not I should remember what happened that day. I remember moments, bits and pieces of what we said. But I know better than to bring something like that up, because there is definitely a part of me that wants to block that day out of my memory.

I get this feeling. I can't really describe it, but it's like the clouds are finally parting, and the sun is going to shine again. (:

Gone through so much, I wonder how much more I have to wait until what I've been praying for comes. It hasn't been easy. But if this is all a dream...

don't wake me up (:
still waiting. 

Devotion.

"What you think is over, may not be over." - Judah Smith

Hillsong Conference 2010. The most epic conference I have ever been to. I think, about 3x better than Planetshakers. And also one of the best 10 days of my life. I couldn't have had as much fun as I did these past 10 days. Got to know the people from church, as well as getting to know more of myself. The messages that were spoken by the preachers were all really helpful. They really helped me clear my head, as well as showing me what I should be doing.

Judah Smith. My favourite speaker. The first time I heard him speak, he blew me away. The words that he preached, helped me the most and showed me that I should never give up, because God has a plan. "God is never late, but he is rarely early." As long as I trust in him, everything will turn out how they were supposed to.

Something Andy Stanley said, that, 'We don't get what we want, because we don't ask God. And even though sometimes we ask God, we ask with the wrong motives.' I've finally realised what I really should be praying for. Not for my happiness, but for hers.

Ed Young, said that "What breaks your heart, will break you out to where God wants you to be." I can see now, that everything that has happened, would have been part of God's plan. The plan to make me a stronger person, spiritually, emotionally as well as physically. If all those things had never happened, I wouldn't be as close to God as I am now. When I was in pain, I turned to God, and he healed me, with his words spoken through others.

Similar things were also said by Bishop T.D Jakes. "Don't get bitter when I'm trying to make you better." The Bishop said that God takes us through things to make us stronger, and that as long as you trust him, everything will turn out ok. That storms don't last. One thing that hit me strongly though, was when he said

"Don't let a brief period in your life define who you are."

So your destiny is always attached to what you have left. That is, what you lose, you don't need. 

"He has sent me to heal the broken hearted"

After my time in Sydney, I know exactly how I feel about her. And it's not just a 'feeling' because there was proof.

lessthanthree.

still waiting.

always and forever.

Going away to Sydney tomorrow for Hillsong. It's going to be epic.
The best part though, is being able to get away from everything. Clear my head, and look forward, instead of dwelling on that day.
I can't believe that I haven't gotten over it, and I hate that it still hurts. Even now.
I just hope, that Hillsong, will be able to take this pain away...
and I hope, that by me going away, it can give you some quality time to think over everything.

I never would have thought, that the road that I picked at the crossroad, would be so bumpy...
But I'm sure it'll smooth out sooner or later...

“Forgiveness is the final form of love” – Reinhold Niebuhr

still waiting.