Valedictory 2011

Valedictory at 'The Grand' on Cathies Lane, near my old house lol. Overall it was a pretty chilled night, but I think they could have given us more time to mingle. They kept telling us to sit down because they kept having performances lol. The routines were good though, I especially liked Tiff, John and Serene's collab, doing officially missing you and rocketeer together. It was really well done in my opinion. I've heard them practice a few times, and there was one really hard harmony, but they managed to pull it off which was really good!
Compared to everyone else, I didn't really take that many photos. Probably because I wasn't around the others for most of the night. I spent most of my night talking to hung-tzu's sisters surprisingly. I've only met them both once before, and that was when I went to ht's house to study. It was pretty weird though, at first, I just sat in ht's spot to eat her food since she ran off to take photos with people, and since her sisters were there we just started talking. Funny night though. Since I was talking to the chen sisters, I saw pretty much everyone who came over to take photos with them. Probably because of all the hype korean Jason created about Shuhsuan, ht's eldest sister. Even though I say eldest, shes only 2 years older than me, same age as Rina! Anyway, it was hilarious seeing all the guys come over and ask to take photos with them. I for one laughed pretty much everytime, because when I asked Shuhsuan how many of those guys she knew, she said she doesn't know any of them LOL. Apparently she only knew me and John. What was even funnier was when Hansol and Thomas asked Shuhsuan to go maccas after valedictory ahaha. for the first 3 times they asked she didn't really give them an answer, but then the chen sisters told me to come as well so it wouldn't be too awkward.

However, what made my night, was when I was sitting between the chen sisters, and then Wilson came over, from behind Shuhsuan, punched her in the arm and said "Hey, how come you aren't performing?" The look on Shuhsuan's face when she turned was priceless. I pretty much lost it, that was how funny it was! Wilson thought that she was ht, and Shuhsuan had that 'wtf' look on her face. If I wasn't there, it would have been VERY awkward for Wilson. I was there to break that awkwardness and introduce them LOL.

As I said earlier in the post, I didn't really take many photos. All of the ones that I did take are either in ht's camera, or Shuhsuans phone lol. I did manage to find 3 photos in Kon's album though. In two of them my eyes were closed so that was fail. But there was one ok photo.

second from the left is ht's eldest sister, the one that all the guys wanted a photo with :P

We also received our own Yr12 mugs! They look quite nice, and they have the names of all the students on them.

children of the unicorn - 2011

The day had finally come. The final day of school. Of course, we still have exams and stuff, but that doesn't really count anyway. Pictures of our last two days of school are all over the internet, I'm sure everybody has seen them by now!

Although it was the last day, it honestly didn't feel like it. I mean, Valedictory on Friday is probably going to be the last time our year level will be all together in the same place. Even so, I really wasn't that sad about it. Probably because I am sure that I will see everyone again anyway, so 'goodbye' isn't very necessary. I know I'm still going to see all my friends, and I really don't think that much is going to change. Just that we won't see each other 5 days of the week. I'm not saying I'll be able to keep in contact with everyone, but it's not as though I'll never see them again. I guess, if you really value them as a friend, you would go out of your way to keep that relationship anyway, you won't just stop hanging out and forget about each other just because high school has ended.

Sitting here, reflecting on the past 6 years, it makes me realise how long I've actually known some people. From year 7 through to year 12. I really think those are the people that will be easy to keep in touch with. The hard part is to keep in touch with people you don't see often.

Next year is going to be like "New game+".

"We may never meet again, but we'll never forget each other."good luck class of 2011.

deactivation

Decided to deactivate my facebook account for my exams. I actually didn’t plan to at first, but then I thought, ‘why not?’ Exams are soon and I really should knuckle down and study, but I seem to have very little motivation. I wonder why that is. hm. Once exams are over, I’m going to be so very very happy.

good game, better luck next time

 Gonna start with this; since my blogspot posts are quite long and tedious to read, here is my tumblr for those who don't want to read such long essays, and would rather an insight into my life through quick an small posts. http://super-choi.tumblr.com/  enjoy!

anyway.

It's pretty much over. As this year comes to a close, so many things will be over for me.

With almost every aspect of my life, I'm going to try and start fresh as soon as I get back from Hong Kong. With some things I know I don't stand a chance, and with others I'm trying my best right now. It's not easy though. So many things to draw my motivation away from me. The only thing I can do is use games as a reward for myself to do work. Some things just weren't meant to be right?

There's no worse feeling than the ones that you get on the inside. Pain wise it's not as bad as the external pain I had when I was in hospital. However, no matter how hard you try, you just can't seem to get rid of it. It is constantly bothering you, drawing your attention to it, and you feel like crap because of it. Makes you wonder why. There are aspects of my life that just never seem to go the way I would like it to go. Everything seems to be fine in the beginning, but then every time, they fall apart, and then I'm left with all these broken pieces that don't fit together. I try to put it back together, in fact I try for a very long time to put those pieces back together, but there is always something missing. Every time it happens it leaves a scar. In total that makes 2 scars.
It's too bad I subject myself to this sort of torture. Maybe now I'll learn to put up a wall. The problem is, I can't seem to find any fault. I'm not being arrogant or anything, but I just can't seem to see what there is to dislike about me. Damn my stubbornness.

A private post from a while back.

Things are going worse than I thought. With the start of a bad week, I thought things had started to get better when the week started to draw to a close. But recently, a certain piece of information was made clear to me.                                                                                                                            I don't know what I can do. I don't know what I should do. To everyone else, I may seem strong, as though I don't really care. But in actual fact, I'm slowly dying inside. It hurts to know that I'm running out of time. I guess all I can do is pray and hope things will get better.

I know its got nothing to do with me, I haven't done anything wrong. But I obviously haven't done anything right either.

"The most important things are the hardest to say, because words diminish them."

I seem so dramatic don't I? That's probably because pain changes things. It can turn someone you thought you once knew, into a completely different person. 

That's why I'm going to start anew. I just have to endure a few more weeks.

end of the holidays

Kind of depressing actually. To think that it's the end of the holidays already. I actually haven't done anything really substantial in terms of study. I probably could have studied more, but I don't regret not studying, since I'm gonna have to work really hard for the next month or so anyway. Kind of like the calm before the storm sort of thing yeah?

Caught up with a lot of my friends these holidays. Including some that I only ever see once per holidays anyway. It was nice. I probably spent the most time with my uni friends though. Usually everyday I'm out I would be with a different group of friends, but this time around, every Friday night and Sunday I would be out with my uni friends, so that was pretty fun. They also drive me around everywhere, so I never have to spend money on transport, so convenient! I'll be getting my license soon, hopefully. I'm sure it'll be fine though, it can't be that hard? 

The reason why these holidays have passed so fast, is probably because so much stuff has happened. Some good, some bad. More good than bad though. There was one day that was kind of crap, but talking to some friends and having so much to do the few days after that really took my mind off things. 

Whenever I have time to kill, I would be watching SCANDAL videos too! It's just a really good way to pass time and take my mind off study and other things. Now that I think about it, ever since I started listening to SCANDAL, they've actually been a pretty big part of my life, even though they are just a band. I devote quite a bit of money and time to them, buying and listening to their music, as well as learning how to play their songs on guitar. When I'm just talking to a good friend, I would bring them up and try and spread the SCANDAL love as far and wide as I can. When I was in hospital, every time they did a procedure, I would start playing SCANDAL songs in my head to take my mind off all the tubes sticking out of my chest and pushing and pulling that I would feel. Their music would also take my mind off the pain a little bit as well. When I'm not very happy, watching their videos would make me smile and laugh, such as when I watch some of their interviews and the どぼんどぼんど　の　theme pv.

Hopefully the next few weeks go by fast. I hope I do well as well. I know God has a plan for me, but it's up to me to help fulfill that plan! Can't wait until the 15th of November!

Overall, holidays were good. If some things happened differently it may have been even better, but still it was good nonetheless! The next holidays I'm on are going to be awesome!

"at the moment"  - those were your words.

procrastination

Current games of interest are: 




and




Procrastination is such bliss, probably not worth it in the long run, but meh. Both games are fun. Never even finished X-2 properly lol. It's nice to play old games again...