a story.

Once upon a time, there lived a little boy. He wasn't very special, nor was he very good at any one thing. You could say that he could do a lot of things, but he was never the best at it, there was always someone better. He was never bothered by this though. He always thought, that it all balances out, so being average at everything was fine by him. He figured, that he had a gift for learning. He always seemed to be able to pick things up really quickly, despite how hard it may be. That boy was seen to be a generally nice person. It wasn't an easy task to make him angry, annoyed or sad, because he was an optimist. Always looking for the bright side of things. However, he was also very lazy. So there would be a lot of things, that he could do something about, but never would, because it was "such a drag". Sometimes, when he talks to people, he would say something, but in the end, he would say "but ohwell" because he never intended to do anything about it. Kind of pointless really. His studies were always constant, with the occasional crap mark every now and then. But he was never bothered by this. However, he never had a dream.There was never anything that he aspired to be, as well as nothing to motivate him to work any harder than he already does. That little boy, realised that he had an easy life, up until he reached Year 10 at school. In the past, he was always carefree, with nothing impeding his life. There were never any major hindrances, if he just forgot about something, it would just go away. That made him a weak person. Without any problems, that little boy would never be able to stand on his own two feet. He would always try and forget about his problems, or rely on other people to fix them for him. Dependent on other people. He was always proud, that he never did badly at school, because he saw that there was always someone doing worse than him. His life had no drama up until he hit a certain point in his life. When that little boy reached Year 9, he went on a holiday, to a place where lots of Asian things were made. He made lots of friends on that trip, including someone who had a helping hand in changing his life. The year after that, the little boy's friend decided to take him and some others on an adventure. A race to be precise. Later on, that same friend of his took him and some others to a place where young people congregated to hear messages. That was life-changing moment in that little boy's life. It was the day he made a lot of new friends, that would always support him in the future, as well as the day he was saved. That friend, probably would never realise, how grateful that little boy is to him. From then on, he would go to that place every week, but his life at school hadn't really changed that much. He still had no dream, he still had no motivation. Then a certain event came along, and you could say that it 'shook the planet'. It was his first time at one of those events, so he didn't really understand what the people were talking about, nonetheless, he still enjoyed it greatly. At that event however, he met someone, that he could never forget, no matter how hard he tried. And trust me, he tried. At first, the little boy saw that person just as someone being friendly, and didn't think much of it. One thing led to another, and he realised that he was getting closer and closer to that person, but he doesn't know how it happened. The two of them started talking more and more, and not even a week after they had met, the little boy started to develop feelings for that other person. At first, he didn't think much of it, "probably just a passing crush", but it didn't pass and more and more people started to find out somehow. At that point in life, things started to change in his life. His studies hadn't changed that much, but he noticed he was in a good mood more often than not. This happy-go-lucky mood he was always in, brought people together, and soon after, a massive friendship group formed. New people at the boy's school, would be able to tell if they could be part of the group, because they all had something in common. They were all Asian. So as time went on, the group became bigger and bigger. There were little groups within the big one, but ultimately, it was a just a massive friendship group. The little boy thought that his life couldn't get any better. Lot's of friends, as well as someone special to him. As the year went on, the little boy and his friends became closer and closer to certain people outside of their school. There was price to all this. Since, the little boy had an easy childhood, without many obstacles, he was weak. He often let his guard down, because of his optimistic nature. Sadness, was that price. There were a lot of times, that he had felt down, and he didn't know what to do, because he had never experienced it before. He always told himself, that everything would be ok, and that he should just smile and get on with life. That was when he realised that life wasn't fair. He got splinters, even while he was sliding down a rainbow. And they hurt. Of course, there were times that he couldn't be happier, such as his birthday, when he received something special from a certain someone. There were many ups and downs. However, nearing the end of that year, he seemed to be down very often. Always because of the same thing. So he decided to use a certain event, to decide what he should do next. He was a weak person, which led him to make such a stupid mistake. That night, was supposed to be fun, good food, good friends and entertainment, the boy even had to make a speech for someone that had guided him in his life. But that night wasn't the best for him. Throughout that entire night, he was bothered by something, and by the end of it, he wasn't exactly the happiest of people. The boy was weak, so he was very vulnerable at that time. It was then, that someone else came along, and cheered him up through everything that was going on. As he talked more and more with that person, he genuinely felt better. That other person, constantly tried to make him happy, which worked. Of course, the little boy hadn't forgotten about his special someone, but he thought that, it would be better for him, if he chose someone that made him happy rather than sad. What he didn't realise, was that he had it the wrong way round. The person who really made him happy, he thought that that was the person who made him sad. So he made a mistake. The little boy didn't realise how big of an effect his actions made, and the year after, the person he thought made him happy left his life. It was at that point, that he had an epiphany. He realised, who was always there for him, who always thought about him, who always stayed up with him. But the little boy was scared. He knew the damage he had done, but he couldn't reverse that damage no matter what. All he could do was hope. The people around him never told him to give up, and that he would be fine, but he didn't know whether or not he should believe that. More time went by, and then he finally found motivation. His studies stayed the same, but he had found something close to a dream, so he at least knew which way he would be headed in his life. However, that other person was always on his mind, and so he never moved forward towards his dream. He was constantly worried, but there wasn't anything the boy could do except wait and hope. It always seemed to be at events, that things between the boy and the other person changed. Another event came, and that event, was crushing. It was something the boy wished had never happened, but he could never drive it out of his mind. That night, was the night he was crushed, as well as the night he decided to wait, for however long it took. He knew, that he could be wasting his time, he knew, that he could be missing an opportunity to find someone else. But the boy didn't care. He had a steady heart and mind, and knew that what he was doing, was what he really wanted to do. After that event, things between them two were a little shaky, but that fixed itself. However, after that event, the little boy noticed something. His mood, was the complete opposite to when he first met that person. Everyday, the little boy would wake up, and put on a fake smile everyday, no matter how hard it was. There were times, that he couldn't even do that, because everything was just too much to handle. He's thought of giving up, but he made a promise. And the one thing that the little boy doesn't do, is break promises. He knew his life was so much harder than it used to be. But he wouldn't have it any other way. He knew, all of this, would make him stronger. So that in the future, nothing can bring him down. The people around him, started to tell him to give up, that he should just go out and meet other people. But he can't. Even if he wanted to. That was something the little boy knew for sure. He was, and still is, waiting for the day when everything becomes bliss again. Another event came. It wasn't the best of events, as the night would have been the same as the night the boy was crushed. So he decided to leave after the main event. He didn't want to be there, just to get crushed again. However, the boy was worried, and made a stupid trip because of it. There wasn't much he could do, so that trip really, made no difference in anything. At one point, when the boy was with one of his friends, he doubted himself. He had no idea what he was doing, and his friend told him that hes being caused more pain than happiness. The little boy however, steeled himself, and decided to keep doing what he was doing, except for not taking as much initiative. For that little boy, only time will tell now.

There was also one more thing. The little boy, wanted to ask that person something. But he was always afraid to. Fear was holding him back. Maybe one day, he'll ask, but for now, the boy probably won't. "ohwell."